I don't know why life keeps showing me so many happy couples this lately
Making me feel jealous with them
Wondering when is my turn to have that someone
Frankly, i have been cheating from the window ,
Not only once but so many times
It's not like nobody come to me and ask me to open the door
There are some come to visit me
They knocked the door,
But sometimes i pretend not to hear it and maybe sometimes i didn't hear it
But when i heard the tok tok sound clearly,
My heart said open the door yet my brain said hold on, you don't know who is he
Maybe he will take your heart away, break it, and give it back to you
I am afraid. I need time. I need more time.
And till i decided to open the door, he went away.
It's easy to fall in love but it's not easy to have a commitment
And i'm a person with a commitment
I always think longer than i could ever done about this kind of situation
It's about feeling
Once you break it, it will not as perfect as before
Once you take it away, you can't give it back and put it back at the right place as before
Yes, i have never been in a relationship
It's not about i have high expectation to a man
I just want to find my Mr. Right
It's not a game, i don't want to court with someone only to feel how to be in a relationship or people call it an experience
Once i am in a relationship, i will be very serious.
I hope that my first boyfriend is my husband as well
I want to find a man that call me instead of sending me a text because he said hearing my voice can refill his energy
I want to find a man that come to my house instead of calling me, to let my parents know that he is serious with me
I want to find a man that embrace me instead of holding my hand, to show people that i am hia girl
I want to find a man that often say i love you instead of often calling me baby because he want me to know that i worth the love
I want to find a man that give me a card with sweet words instead of chocolate because he knows that i will re-read it again and again
I want to find a man that cook for me instead of taking me out for lunch or dinner because he knows that homemade is better than anything
I want to find a man that stand in front of my house when i text " i miss you " instead of replying i miss you too
I want to find a man that hug me tightly instead of saying baby it's ok when i tell him about my problem
I want to find a man that say " i'm more grateful to have you in my life " instead of saying you're welcome everytime i say thank you to him which means i'm grateful to have him in my life