I WILL BE FINE

Tonight is just like any other night.
Difficult as hell but you'll do what you've done.
You'll get over it.
You'll get through it.
You'll be fine

TRICKY GIRL

Who knows she will not stab you on your back?
I hate meeting this kind of people
again and again.
Stay away from one but there come another one
Can't human just live the world peacefully?
Say sorry if you're wrong and don't say it is someone else's mistake instead.
It's funny that you keep older but still act like a kid
Well,  in here i know
Earth is really amazing.
Can't believe that it contains this kind of species

Welcoming Baby Darren

Staying in your mommy's tummy is nice

But coming to this world and meeting us is more wonderful! 

Welcome to the big family my first nephew

Darren Kay Xienata

Have you known all of us are so excited to welcome you in this world. 

Well, let me congratulate you for being a winner.  

You're amazing! 

I'M HERE

I'm here.

At the place where's nobody in here. 

Listening to the music

Daydreaming 

Of the upcoming future

Of the place where i belong to

Of the adventure waiting for me

Of the one holding my hands 

Of the journey we'll go through 

And still i'm here. 

Hope but never expect

Look forward but never wait

Imagine but haven't been there yet

But soon

I mean really soon
Expectation will be reached
Waiting will be over
And i will be there

10 BOOKS IN A MONTH.

I've been spending my time for reading in this month.
10 books !!  Gue juga gk nyangka ud baca bnyk banget.
It's all because Tita Sanaria.

Yupss. ..
Cci gue yg prtama baca sih sbnrny.
Trus dia krm ke gue e-bookny trus sruh gue baca. Katany song thak.
Dan gue yg akhirny nyuruh dia krmin novel" lain karangan Tita Sanaria.

Sekian curhatan gue yang gk penting ini.  

Hahahaha

FEELING

It's good to know there is someone who is missing you out there.
Needless to say,  he is not the one who i wish for.
I don't blame him for having this feeling
Cause i know heart is the most complicated element in love.
Cannot be forced yet difficult to be ignored

I like you.  As a friend.
And i don't think we can ever cross the more-than-friend line.
You know it ever happened. This situation.
And i really don't wish for the second silence attack.

As the time passes without us noticing
And thing happens unexpectedly.
I hope you can come to a phase
That we cannot be together now
Cause all i want is...
To be there.

IT'S RIGHT, ISN'T IT?

Tick one of my to-do-list

It has been three months since my last post!! It's funny how days are longer but years are short. I even didn't notice that i have been hiatus for this long.
Hmhm.. So what had been done in the last three months?

Well, I think i've taken a big step for getting a new job. So,  i did the interview in Musim Mas while my heart is still left in my previous company.  Comfort zone.  Do you ever hear that?  Yes,  i'm in comfort zone.  Feel so hard to leave my previous company yet excited to begin the new job.i know that i'm not taking the wrong step. I know that one day i'll say " i'm so happy to choose this path."

A little memory to be remembered. 

Today marks the 16th day that i work at here. I'm so grateful that i can belong to logistic department. Cause i think the people are so nice here ( my sister told me so. )

Then,  2 months selling project is almost done.  Like finally....

My group
Santy-jessica-gerald-denilson

Wish i'm here now

Thank you 2018 ❤

Happy new year guyss
Sorry for the belated greeting

So, i would like to flash back a little bit about the things that i had done in 2018.

Class Master of Regular 17
Frankly, according to me, it's the biggest thing that i had done in 2018.
It's an honor to be a leader of my class.
And I have got so many new experiences in this moment
I learn about how to talk in front of the class as a leader, manage all the things right in the place, meet new people and others.
it's not easy but yet fun and challenging.
the most memorable thing is when i stood on the stage holding "The most spiritful class" trophy.

Second Runner up in CDP Contest.
In a year, there will be 2 times my campus holding a contest.
I'm sad that i haven't been a champion.
maybe should try again in this year.
but I'm thankful that i can be the 2nd runner up. TWICE. although it's only Program Level.

I got my driving licence.
yeay... finally, i learn how to drive !!

I travel Thailand.
it was my first time flying by plane.
and you know what, my sister booked the ticket one month before
and i couldn't sleep for the first week after she booked it because i was too excited!!
silly me

I started my youtube channel
I hope that i can post more videos in this year.
any idea?

In 2019
I want to earn much money and save more.
I want to be healthier.
I want to focus in my dreams.

See you soon?

22 December 2018

Dandy is going to go to Sydney guys.

So, we were gathering for the last time with him

tbh, there are 2 things that make me sad 

the first is, sydney has always been my favorite city.

and getting to know that i haven't got the chance to go there is really disappoint me

but despite of that thing,

i'm really sad because HE go 

you know, 

he might not be my best of the best

but sure he is one of my best

don't know this is dandy's farewell or katabok's day
hahahaha

Katabok with the one who is going to leave this hometown

so, this might be the last time we gather at his house

i'm looking forward to meet with the new him in the future

good luck and safe flight Bro! i wish the best for you :)

Bangkok travel vlog is finally up on youtube!!!!

Hello guyss
So my bangkok travel vlog is finally up on youtube!!!
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=T6ptUJeVrM4&t=9s
Yeayyyyyyy

It really takes a lot of effort
Because i have no basic in editing
So, i really learn it all by myself with the Mr. google helping me
Still so many things that i need to learn

Gue masih belum bisa banyak ngomong
Karna frankly, susah banget
Totok banget kalo gue ngomong bahasa indonesia
Ngomong inggris di kira sok
Ngomong hokkien banyak yg gk ngerti
So, pardon me kalo kalian cuma bisa dengan bahasa indonesiaku yg begitu kaku
Hahahja
But i hope that you enjoy my video
Don't forget to subscribe and like :p

Happiest birthday to you my awesome friend !

3rd November 2018

Happy birthday to you

Happy birthday to you

Happy birthday 

Happy birthday

Happy birthday Jeno .....

prok prok prokkk

wkwkwk

Happy birthday my awesome friend

wish you all the best in everything

there's are so many years ahead and i hope that you always get the best

best day, best friend, best job, and best partner in life!

much love for you <3

Happy Jeno

and happy us!

so, kita ngerayainnya di Wakaka

habis dari sana kita ke thamrin plaza

then , ke perak vegetarian

tempat makannya ada di rekomendasikan sama makanmana

and trully, gue juga recommended tempat ini ke kalian

karna makanannya emang enak , jumbo dan super murah

sayangnya pas itu, gue udah kenyang banget jadi cuma icip" sikit

Rain + Traffic Jam

13th October 2018

Helloooooooooo

Gila, kekmy ud lama yah gue gk update blog gue wkwkwkk

Don't know what to write

Also

Had been so busy this lately

Cuma mau crita

Biasa tiap pgi gue pgi krja kan naik angkot. Jdi tdi pagi juga seperti pagi" yg lainny. Hahaha bedanya ada satu momen yg buat gue tersentuh bgt. Jdi pas gue naik angkot , angkotnya msih kosong tuh, lucky me. Pas smpe simpang selanjutny which is simpang martubung, ada segerombolan ank sklh dgn seragam yg sama ( gue gk tau mreka saling kenal or gk ) naik ke angkot yg gue naiki jga. Cuma mreka kebanyakan orng. Smpe ad 2 cwe yg di pangku sama 2 cwe.Jdi sisa stu cwe gk dpt duduk. Kasihan banget. cuma emang gk bisa geser lgi. Beneran sempit. Trus kan pas hujan dan macet. Mungkin dia pikir males banget nunggu angkot selanjutnya karna emang tmn"ny ud pada naik dan dpt duduk, sisa dia sndri, kan ngenes bgt kalo dia sndrian berdiri di simpang nunggu angkot di hari yang tidak cerah ini. Wkwkwk
Jdi akhirny dia tetap naik dan gempet diantara gue sama satu cwo yg duduk di sblh gue ini, cuma gempet doang gk dpt duduk. Jdi dia kek setengah jongkok gitu. Bakalan pegel banget itu gilaa.. Trus , cwo yg duduk sblh gue ini ( dia make seragam yg sama kek cwe ini jga, mungkin tmn dia kali yah ), dia kan lepas tasny , tasny dia taruk di pangkuanny posisi tidur gitu. Baru dia bilang sama cwe yg gk dpt duduk ini " duduk di atas tas aku aja "
Trus cweny blng " hah? Tas kamu? "
" iyah , gpp "
Akhirny cweny itu duduk di atas tas si cwonya. ( which mean secara gk langsung di pangku cwo itu kali yah )
Trus di angkot kan goyang" gitu karna bnyk jalanan yg lobang", gue liat si cwony kek berusaha nahan tasny biar gk goyang" gitu, pegang erat" tasnya biar gk kegeser" tasnya. Karna kalo goyang" trus, kan cweny susah duduk jga. Melayang layang gitu.
Gue gk tau gue jadi melow di pagi hari yg hujan nan deras ini atau apa, but i think the boy was such a real gentleman geng and i was so touched!
end of my story -

My two little sweet boys

In bedroom
Koko and dede are fighting !! ( pas cuma gue sama mreka di rmh )

Me : STOP FIGHTING !! Ntar ulang nokai ho w pok yah ( ntar kelen 2 gue tabokin yah )

Koko and dede keep fighting.

Me : (teriak" lagi gk jelas sruh berhenti. Smpe akhirny gue capek dan biarin mreka tetap berantam)

Akhirny karna mreka ribut berantam, gue keluar kamar.

15 minutes later

Gue balek masuk kamar dan liat mreka ud adem" aja gitu sambil ketawa".
Kesel banget gilaaa.. Ud gue triak"in smpe gk ad suara sruh jgn berantam, pada akhirny kurang dari satu jam mreka ud ketawa" lgi. Tau gitu gak usah gue triakin".
But this is what siblings mean

Mreka tuh luar biasa banget. Semenjak masuk SMA, gak pernah sekalipun dpt ambil rapor. Selalu kena panggilan ortu dan merahny tu mungkin setengah dri total smua pljrn di sklh. Alhasil , papa gue selalu mrepet" setelah ngambil rapor mreka di sekolah.

Until one day,

Me : " kalo kelen gk kena panggilan lgi, gue kasih deh goban per orng"
Mrekany heboh tuh, " cin ya, awas kalo bo yah "
Me : " iyah cin, kalo gak merah sama sekali w kasih deh cepakceng "

And you know the result.....
It works!!!
Hahahha emang duit ngalahin smuany yah
Rapor prtama yg di bagi setelah gue ngomong begitu, dede dpt goban dri gue. Wkwkw koko msih kena panggilan sih , tapi at least, merahny tu gk sebnyak kek dulu lgi yang super parahhhh
Padahal gue sama cci" gue bisa di kategorikan termasuk pintar dlm hal bljr. Wktu sklh kita selalu masuk 10 bsr gitu. Cuma kok bisa yah si kembar ini geblek banget. Wkwkwk
Tapi gue yakin mreka gk bodoh sbnrny. Karna pas SD koko prnh juara kls jga. Cumanya ank cwo kalo makin bsr yah makin males bljr. Tugas sama sekali gk ngerjain DULUNYA. Hahah sprti yg gue blng tdi, wktu mreka tau gue bagi" duit, walaupun gk jdi super rajin yang setiap mau ujian malamnya belajar abis"an, tpi at least, mreka ud kerjain tugas ( yah, walaupun kadang ngerepotin gue sruh bntu cri jwban )

Although they're not good in school
But at least they both are good men
Frankly, it's ridiculous to call them men. ( padahal bntr lagi mreka lulus SMA dan mungkin ud pantas disebut dewasa )
But i just think that they will forever be my two little sweet boyss.


Just feel like wanna share about them today. Sayanggg kaliannnn bangettttt muahhh.

WHO AM I ? ( PART 2 )

i'm back with the fact of myself!

9. gue buta jalan. entah kenapa gue gak bisa hafal jalanan. mungkin karna gue gak pernah benar-benar perhatiin jalanan kali yah. sampai sekarang arah jalan dari rumah gue ke cendana pun gue belum hafal. padahal gue kuliah udah hampir setahun wkwkwk.

10.gue suka baca blog gue sendiri. wkwkwk jadi kalo gak ad kerjaan gue baca ulang.

11. teman cwo gue lebih bnyk dari pada tmn cwe. Mungkin karna cwo lebih easy going.

12. Gue pengen naik bianglala or komedi putar or ferris wheel whatever it called pokokny yang putar" deh. Don't know why but i really wish to be in one of the compartment. Maybe with my ❤ one day.
Just so sad that i couldn't make it when i was in asiatique.

13. gue pengen punya 4 anak.setiap kali gue bilang pengen punya 4 anak, orng" bakalan bilang " what? are you sure ?" i don't know what's wrong for having 4 children in the future.
you know, i come from a big family. papa gue ank ke 5 dari 7 saudara dan mama gue anak ke 3 dari 4 saudara. and i have about 20/30 cousins. can you imagine how big my family? i love big family and i'm looking forward to have my own big family.

14. first sight is very important menurut gue. same as first impression. gue merasa if i don't like that person at first sight, then, i will never be his/her friend for the rest of my life. not because i cannot, but i don't want.
sama juga ketika gue fall in love. if he attracted my attention at first, then, it's possible for me to love him.but who knows the mystery about love. maybe the boy that i hate the most could turn into my other half? who knows that? karna ada orng yang bilang hanya ada garis tipis yang memisahkan perasaan benci dan cinta. hahaha

15. I'm a kind of career girl. but to be honest, kalo gue boleh milih , kalo keadaan memungkinkan gue utk jadi ibu rumah tangga aja di rumah, ( which mean suami gue mampu ngehidupin keluarga kita dan tetap ada uang belanja buat gue wkwkwk )  i would love that. gue gak keberatan buat beres" rumah. even i've said to myself, kalo misalny gue nikah nnti gue gak mau ada pembantu because i want to arrange everything in my house by my own self. gue juga gak keberatan di sruh ngurus anak sndri tanpa babysitter. and i would love to wait my husband from coming home after work and cook for him.

16. i think i'm independent. gue bakalan lakuin hal yang bisa gue lakuin sndri tanpa ganggu orang lain. i just think kalau orng lain bisa berarti gue juga pasti bisa.

gak tau lgi mau nulis apa, if there is something that you want to ask me about myself or anything, just simply comment below or send me an email :)